Hebrews 12:2
Lately, people around me have signified their willingness to quit the ministry (ok, that was me studying too much law). It’s really sad because I feel so powerless to help them. It’s past the point of reasoning for some of them. Theoretically, they know their facts. It’s just that they either refuse to accept them or reject them or they just give up trying altogether because of the many failures encountered. It breaks my heart. I’m sure God is much more saddened than I am, the thing is I can’t figure out why He would allow this to happen. I’m sure he has his purposes, it’s just that I can’t seem to see things his way just yet. I still believe he is in control of all things, but I think there is something for me to learn as well through all this “chaos” and uncertainty.
I need to constantly remind myself that God is in control and whatever happens he has allowed it to happen. At least there is one constant in my life. Rock of Ages, yeah, that’s my God. While I’m still afloat, I think I need to take a more aggressive stance, swim harder as it were. I was just reminded by my wise dad that if I were to do nothing, the current will just take me downstream. Hence, I need to be vigilant, think with my head, be alert always, as it were, on call 24 hours. I cannot allow myself to be disillusioned or distracted which is so easy for me to become.
2ndly, I realize that what I can do is really nothing compared to what he can do. That’s why I need to pray more, which is hard considering me, a person who seldom sits down to just pray even for half an hour… but the less I spend my time in prayer, the easier it will be for me to feel discouraged or disillusioned. “he gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak… they that wait upon the Lord shall mount up on wings like eagles…” Isaiah 40:29-31. I sincerely believe that God can melt the hardest of hearts.
“if my people…will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and… forgive their sin and will heal their land.”
2 Chronicles 7:14
